Trust.
That is the word that came to me the other day when I was moving through the pain in my left hip. Trust in my feminine flow (aka divine flow, aka Spirit) at a deeper level, knowing I am supported… and that I have all the support I need to embrace this. The pain in my left hip. The information my body is revealing to me now… getting my attention through physical pain. Calling me to TRUST at an ever deeper level.
My past (getting more distant each day) was about operating from my more “masculine” qualities – self reliance, doing, being practical, focused, pushing, driving myself. It worked for me until it didn’t. I arrived here in the USA from my home in Australia in 1994 on a spiritual quest. I was committed to exploring, understanding, integrating, and knowing my feminine energy. Though I had enjoyed “success” in my life and business by society’s standards, I had no concept of myself as a creative being, nor really how to nurture myself, truly receive nor allow myself to be taken care of. I knew how to achieve and I knew how to provide… but I knew there was more to life. I knew that a deeper level of fulfilment, purpose and connection was available. A different way to live. A different energy to source from.
It has been a wonderful and, at times, a very painful journey, reconnecting to my feminine side and here I am 14 years later still working with this… only from a very different place now. I have integrated much of my feminine energy and am far less “masculine” in my daily life. And yet, as I continue to do my work, here… right now… through the pain in my hip… another level of integrating the feminine energy is happening through my body. For me, now is about learning to trust at the deepest level yet. I am being asked to surrender even more and trust that I am totally supported.
As I say time and time again, healing and transformation must happen THROUGH the body for it to hold. But, my work with my hip this week reminded me about the importance of TRUST in this equation. We must learn to trust ourselves and our bodies. We must learn to trust the information, the knowing and the power we receive when we go within and listen. We must learn to trust that we will be supported and taken care of. In other words, we must TRUST THE PROCESS. When we do, we let the magic happen.
I had a client the other day who, while doing work with painful joints, discovered that these inflamed areas in her body had a specific message for her. They were saying, “spend time with us, listen to us. When you do, we will give you the strength you need.” In other words, if you nurture and love us, you will be taken care of. In other words, TRUST.
It’s not easy at first to trust the process. It happens one step at a time. But if we will trust just a little more… and then a little more… the magic of transformation will happen.
Do you relate to this? I would love to hear from you, please post a comment or send me an e-mail… What’s you next level of trust? What are you being asked to trust in right now?